i need to start yoga again. i haven't been to the studio or done it on my own since august.
the peace has left me.
the doubt has crept in.
and i find myself thinking i am not a very likable person. maybe i'm one of those people that can only be tolerated in small doses. i just want to know. i just want to ask somebody, "is it because i'm an asshole? is that why you didn't invite me? is that why you don't call me? is that why you never answer my messages?"
maybe i just need to come to terms with it.
i need the peace back...
Lovie, I feel the same way. I wonder at times is it me with a giant Eff Off sign on my forehead or am I that repulsed by people I would rather become a hermit because the effort it takes to form a friendship with someone only to have them crush it is just too exhausting. I miss my friends.
ReplyDeletei haven't been anywhere near my blogs in so long, i didn't even see this until now... wish we weren't in distant states...
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