hot yoga before kids was easier in all ways

this evening michelle asked if we could start going to yoga again soon.  i have a gift certificate to younique yoga in denville, i am all for this course of action!  now to find the time... this was so much easier a task before there were children involved.  i haven't been to any hot yoga classes since before pregnancy.  i'm kind of nervous, i remember how hard it was for michelle after sean was born.  your body just isn't the same, it doesn't work the same, it doesn't stretch the same, and... its just not the same. even just going to non-hot yoga was hard for me.  the first post-pregnancy session was harder than the first time i ever practiced yoga.  these kids screw you up!

its your call

today i bought $50 yoga pants.  eric said "its your call." in that 'do you really want to spend that money on pants?' kind of way, but tone of voice isn't in text message so i read it as him leaving it up to me.  so i bought them.  and i love them.  they're so comfortable and flattering and fabulous.

omni's motherhood series

i'm enjoying the motherhood series at yoga montclair.  but honestly i think i prefer yoga without minerva. she's great for the most part, but it isn't easy, and i can't relax.  even so, this will be an educational experience, even if i don't get much yoga in while we're there.

new studio for yoga montclair

i also started going back to yoga montclair.  they've moved to a new studio and it's quite lovely.  omni is very pregnant so i'll have to actually venture into the classes of other instructors.  i love omni so much i never bothered with anyone else.  how closed-minded of me!  the problem, of course, being that its all the way in montclair and once my groupons run out, will i want to make the trip?  maybe not every week, but of course i will!

shiva nata

so, i have endeavored into a new adventure called shiva nata.  a friend of mine teaches classes at a local community center, and they call it 'yoga for your brain' so i figured it fits into this spot.  i actually credit the fact that i'm blogging again to her and the shiva nata practice.  its an opener, a focuser, and a relaxer.  it motivates and regulates.  its the new hotness and i love it.

prenatal yoga: worth every penny.

i've been taking prenatal yoga classes since june.  its amazing, they really do help with the discomfort of pregnancy.  i'm hoping that everything omni has been teaching us will help once it comes time for delivery, too.  we shall see.

i still can't wait to get back into a normal yoga routine, and go back to hot yoga.

everything i do is judged and they mostly get it wrong but oh well

i need to start yoga again.  i haven't been to the studio or done it on my own since august.

the peace has left me.

the doubt has crept in.

and i find myself thinking i am not a very likable person.  maybe i'm one of those people that can only be tolerated in small doses.  i just want to know.  i just want to ask somebody, "is it because i'm an asshole? is that why you didn't invite me? is that why you don't call me?  is that why you never answer my messages?"

maybe i just need to come to terms with it.

i need the peace back...